As I watched the building being demolished, it reminded me of what it feels like when we need to let go of old "constructs" that are no longer serving us, that we've grown from, or that simply were a part of a past. I share my ponderings as we watch the old being demolished.. making way for something new!
Mark Twain once said, "I've been through some terrible things in my life.. and some of them actually happened." We have incredible minds and imaginations capable of creating amazing things.. But sometimes our imagination works against us. Over our lives, "things" happen... difficult childhoods, trauma, death, illness, loss, abuse, disappointments... And in order to survive, we escape into our minds.. It is an incredible human coping mechanism. It's how we survive things that we cannot digest, explain or fix, and still get on with our lives without falling apart. But what does this inner landscape look like by the time we are adults? Sure, there might be sunshiney spots, but many of us struggle with long-lasting depression, anxiety, phobias, panic, loneliness, grief, etc... Why are these such a struggle today? Why can't we escape? We are locked in our own prison I just watched a documentary, "The Sound [...]
Sometimes life is so hard. We ask ourselves "Why is this happening?".. We wish things were different, or had gone differently.. And there times where we have real "dark nights of the soul" where everything that we once believed doesn't make any sense and we don't know what to do next.. Nothing makes any sense any more. And when we only focus on the physical world, the world of material things, the world of our roles in society, what we are "supposed" to be doing, how we are supposed to feel and how we think/hope/wish things were going, we can end up in real despair.. But what if there is other purpose to these hard times? What if there is a honing of our lives? What if there is something much greater going on? Rumi was a great mystic.. So his desire was to experience the divine in life.. To [...]
My son sent me this beautiful video of Jackie Evancho singing this beautiful song (with the voice of an angel)... Matthew Evancho's "To Believe"... I can so relate to the feelings in this song.. the desire to help others who have less, who don't have enough food, who don't have safety or a home.. But as I listened to this song, I started hearing her sing it to me personally... I would like YOU to find peace. I would like YOU to be fed. I would like YOU to feel love... Most of us are not obviously starving or lacking love or home... But what if we are? What if what we see all around us truly is asking us to look deeper inside as well?... This is one of the funny places where science and religion agree. Scientific thought says that there [...]
Behind all of these teachings there is something that lies "beyond the veil". For all of the years that I have taught yoga, meditation, spirituality, tantra, etc I have always struggled with talking about the concept of God or spirit into my teachings. Mostly because I didn't want the words to offend anyone. I didn't want anyone to turn away because of it. And this is because I believe that if discussing this topic separates us, then we aren't discussing it correctly. Because we are all the same. We all have flesh and we all are energy as well. It isn't that some of us are connected to God/spirit and others aren't. We are all the same... And all of these teachings depend on the idea that we are more than flesh and blood.. that we are more than our looks, our jobs, our status in the community, how many [...]
What if you had to live the same day over and over again forever… or at least until something inside you changed... If you've never seen Bill Murray in the movie "Groundhog Day", you must go see it immediately!! It is one of the most profound movies you will ever see about how changing your consciousness changes your whole experience of life!! Many of us feel stuck in a rut… Or at least stuck in a routine that never seems to change. We wake up, we get the kids ready, we make lunches, we go to work, we talk to the same people, take the same route home, eat supper, etc, etc, etc… We smile and try to make the best of it… But the bottom line is that most of our society struggles with depression, anxiety, and all kinds of issues... In the movie, Bill gets caught literally [...]
You know those dreams and hopes that just don't go away? Well, they aren't going anywhere. They will stay with you until… well.. until they happen. :) Sometimes it's easy to lose hope that our lives will ever turn out the way we want. We know what we want. Or we know how we want to feel. But the world of responsibilities and "life" seemed to take over somewhere along the way and we feel like actually creating a life of freedom, happiness and ease is just not going to happen for us. But here's the good news!! Our inner spirit never gives up!! Why? Because this is the energy that makes us ALIVE! This is the creative force inside of us that is dying to experience this amazing world. And no matter how many jobs and dishes and obligations we put in front of that, that amazing energy will keep [...]
What does Tantra, the philosophy of love, intimacy & Divine Connection, have to do with Mathematics? Everything... And this is why when we discover tantra, our lives start to fit together like a beautiful puzzle... because the building blocks for an amazing edifice is within us... we just have to know how to put them together. Mathematician Turned Tantrika? Long before I was a tantrika, I was once a mathematician. I spent 5 years at the University of Waterloo studying every kind of mathematics from pure math, statistics, calculus, algebra, computer science, etc... eventually receiving a degree in Combinatorics & Optimization... Whew... quite a mouthful.. ;) But what does a mathematician do? When people found out that I had a degree in Math, the first response would be "OK add these five numbers... REALLY FAST!!"... Which of course I couldn't... ;) Mathematics is so much more than arithmetic. Mathematics [...]